I had my reoccuring dream again

Ok so in real life in 1995 or so Arian and I had 2 best friends. I sorta think every couple should have that one couple you get along with, where all 4 are friends. Anyway, I was managing hungry Howie's and this girl Jen came to work for me. She and her Boyfriend Morgan were new to Daytona and they live a few blocks from me and the Howie.
Arian and Morgan got along great and Morgan was into taking guitar lessons from Arian. They had a big Dalmatian, Jen and I used to go on walks with the dog and talk about life and love. We were all about the same age and Morgan and Jen had dated as long as Airna and I had which I think was 6 or 7 years at the time.

Morgan was in a bar and saw a bar fight errupt. I cant go into the details but he was beaten to death with a pool stick. I remember the words, crushed, ocular cavity, annurism and time of death.
Being that they had no family here I was asked to pack up there house and care for the dalmatian for about 2 weeks, maybe less I have no idea now.

My dream goes like this. I am standing before the bathroom mirror in Jens house and I am crying. I can not do it. I stare at the toothbrushes which one is Jen’s. would she want his toothbrush, would I want Arian’s if he died? Who's hairbrush is this? I run through the house, birthday gift Morgan was going to give my brother is there. I don't know if I should take it. I know its for Landan, I hurt. I note to me from Jenn on the fridge from before Morgan died, its not legible in the dream, flash, sorting clothes, washing laundry. Flash last soda Morgan drank do you save the can. I cant do this I say it out loud, I cant I don't know how to pack up this life. I can not fix this I can not help Jen. My dreams is blurry swirly focus on t shirt from last concert they went to. Jen, will you ever go to another concert. I cant do this I yell. I throw the toothbrush away and this time I fall fall fall fall.

I wake up crying